There are a few parts of me that I miss. I miss playing video games. I haven't played video games since last summer. Growing up I was kinda lonely. My siblings were so much older than me that we never really hung out and I wasn't very good at meeting people so for the most part video games were my friends. I wasn't addicted to them or anything. For the most part I read a lot as a child, but I indulged from time to time in sitting in front of a TV with a PS controller in my hands.

As I grew up I found a few friends. And a couple of those friends loved playing video games as much as I did. There were even a few times that I could convince Jean-Louise to play with me. She was terrible! Completely awful, but for some reason playing with her was so much fun.

If I was feeling competitive Cara would come over and we would end up destroying each other at Mario Cart, Halo, Super Smash Brothers, you name it. One time we got really worked up over a Mario Cart race and ended up cursing at each other all day.

Last year I had a video game buddy. He was really cocky when it came to video games, but he was fun to play with. Whenever I beat him, he would always act really shocked and demand a re-match and I would beat him again. BUT when it came to Mario Cart the jerk was unbeatable, it was ridiculous. The first time the two of us ever played alone together, he was letting me borrow some sheet music and while we waited for it to print we took turns schooling the other on the Wii.

As time went on video games became something you did with your friends and not by yourself. I won't lie either. It was more fun this way. It got to the point where I would only play if someone else was involved in the video game playing though.

Eventually, those video game friends disappeared one by one. Cara is working in Japan now and happily married. Jeanie is still around, but we see each other less and less, but I'm hoping to remedy that soon. The other video game buddy? Well we hit a rough patch. We ended up fighting a lot over the dumbest stuff. I think the both of us are still angry from our last fight. It's funny. The first "fight" we ever had was back in March of 2009 and at the end he asked, "Am I still going to have my video game buddy?" I replied, "Of course." I hate that I lied to him.

I don't play video games anymore. I tried the other day, but I wasn't in the mood. I was at Trevors apartment and I played a round of Mario Cart, but I didn't enjoy it. Honestly, when it comes down to it all, it was the people I loved playing with, and not the games we were playing. I said at the start, I missed a few things about me. I miss laughing at or with Jeanie. I miss being ridiculous with Cara. I miss having someone who I could say anything to. That being said, I don't regret any of my choices. I burned a bridge or two and I won't look back, but the consequences of burning that bridge really blow.

I'm seeing someone now. We're having fun. We don't play video games together, but he has great taste in film and literature.